“The most self-inspiring poem since the arrival of Rudyard Kipling’s masterpiece, If” – thepublicblogger
Crystalkay Fairrington earned her undergraduate degree from Berkeley, and studied a year abroad at the Pontifical Catholic University of Chile, Santiago. She is currently working on her Master’s Degree at Trinity College in Dublin, Ireland. Crystalkay’s father is my younger brother.
Prior to 2013, If by Rudyard Kipling was where I went. Since then, I return to my center after revisiting my Niece’s words.
courtesy of YB MUZIK…. Through the Grapevine
from 2013, but I predict timeless
The Plight of the Powerless Consciousness
by Crystalkay Fairrington
I’m far from my peek of consciousness;
I’m just breaking into this game.
But I have some advice for the novices
like me, that are starting to feel the same.
Like there’s an emptiness in your existence,
and a bountiful source of sadness.
You want to fight these emotions through resistance,
but powerlessness and consciousness drive you to madness.
Like breathing seems just a little more futile,
as if pieces of you break off with each exhale.
In your despair you find little worthwhile,
afraid to move, feeling that to move is to fail.
In each of these moments I go back to my center,
that place that enables me to shamelessly feel.
To paint, dance, cry, or sing is my mentor.
All thoughts are stopped. In that moment, I heal.
There, the wills of the cowardly, though strong
cannot disrupt my internal connection,
and in those crucial moments I realize all along,
that when I create I am in my place of protection.
They cannot make me hate myself, or feel alone.
They can only spew hatred and lies about the body I borrow,
Even then, when others believe them and the lies they condone,
I will write. And my freedom will rise from what was once my sorrow.